I'll find my way to Neverland

In Greek Orthodox Tradition, Lent is a time to do good and to also eat a (somewhat) Vegan diet - shellfish allowed. Usually this occurs three times a year, 40 days before Easter, two weeks in August for the Panagia, and 40 days before Christmas. I was fine for the Christmas fast, but Easter this year… since it’s Palm Sunday for me, some reflection….

I would fast for Lent like this since I was a young kid - do not think it was solely started as an Ana mindset, but this year I was horrible. I didn’t view it as a time to concentrate on more important matters such as my acts of goodwill, charity, or even in improving myself - I saw it as a diet, and I would cheat on occasion.

I’m not so much as ashamed at “breaking my fast” as I am about VIEWING this as a sort of “diet” of some kind - especially since I do value veganism as something for animal rights and as an environmentally friendly lifestyle. I’m a vegetarian, and would indeed like to one day become a vegan, but I can’t do taht until I better my relationship with food…

It sickens me that I degraded this lifestyle AND limited my spiritual growth. =/ I kinda want to do a little self-reflection with my own day of fasting (not in the ANA terms, but in my Greek-Orthodox terms of being a vegan), and also travel upstate to a very natural place so I can be around God and think. I’m not very religious, but I do believe in God and am connected with my culture, so this year’s fasting experience unnerved me…