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Dinner tonight

http://www.naturalnews.com/034370_avocado_nutrition_facts_health.html 

http://www.californiaavocadosdirect.com/2/avocado-nutrition-avocado-health-facts-avocado-calories.aspx

 Just gunna copy and paste some of the big ones so anyone too lazy to click the links can read.

• Avocados contain the unsaturated fats necessary and HEALTHY for your body. They only contain 2 grams of saturated fat. Like olive oil, avocadoes boost levels of HDL (the “good” cholesterol). HDL cholesterol can help protect against the damage caused by free radicals. This type of cholesterol also helps regulate triglyceride levels, preventing diabetes

• Avocadoes provide all 18 essential amino acids necessary for the body to form a complete protein. Unlike the protein in steak, which is difficult for most people to digest, avocado protein is readily absorbed by the body because avocadoes also contain fiber. GOOD NEWS FOR VEGETARIANS AND VEGANS!!!

• Avocadoes, also known as alligator pears, offer a diverse range of carotenoids. Including not only the better known ones such as beta-carotene, alpha-carotene and lutein, but also lesser known varieties of this type of phytonutrient such as neoxanthin, zeaxanthin, chrysanthemaxanthin, neochrome, beta-cryptoxanthin and violaxanthin. Every time you consume foods rich in carotenoids, you deliver high quality vitamin A to your body, thereby protecting eye health. Carotenoids also enhance the functioning of the immune system and promote healthy functioning of the reproductive system. Since carotenoids are fat soluble, eating avocadoes optimizes the absorption of these nutrients.

• Many people now take supplements in order to consume more omega-3 fatty acids to lower their risk of heart disease. Avocadoes are rich in omega-3, delivering 160 milligrams per cup of alpha-linolenic acid.

• Avocados act as a “nutrient booster”. Nutrients in other fruits and vegetables are enhanced when eaten with avocado. When you eat an avocado with other food it allows your body to absorb more fat-soluble nutrients, such as alpha and beta-carotene. For example, eating a salad with avocados allows you to absorb five times the amount of carotenoids than a salad without avocados.

• An avocado’s nutrient rich contents makes it a perfect food for recovering and competing athletes of any level. ************

NO ONE SHITS ON AVOCADOS.

This was a beautiful beautiful dinner. Roasted chickpeas and veggies, brown rice with balsamic, Mac and cheese with bread crumbs. Good food and good company!

So I’m in a wonderful mood today! Delicious and comforting breakfast, warm tea, early start on the long day, a letter from a friend back home, a first final that I feel went well, and an extra hour to relax before going to take my Spanish Oral exam!

AND I got my lunch in advance and am going to make a delicious dinner tonight. I think I want to go for a walk later too! So I can’t exercise till after Christmas? Doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy the outside!

:) Good day so far means Lena camera whores herself.

20 minutes of Elliptical since there’s thunderstorms - gr what I wouldn’t give for a nice outdoor jog… oh! and 40 minutes of yoga (: ….

I still really wanna go to the gym and lift, though. I honestly want to start REAL weights and deadlifts. I’m terrified when I go down to the weight room, though, and rush behind some machines….

I used to squat 120 my freshman year….I really REALLY think I could start that up again easily, but I’m like all HFAOISHFASIOPFAS OMG HAI GUYS WANT A NEWBIE 18 YEAR OLD GIRL INVADING YOUR LIFTING SPACE? 

guyssss

help meeeeeeeee

So yesterday was a pretty okay day…

Woke up, made farina, did a 50 minute yoga routine, then printed out forms/made payments for/looked stuff up for college. Afterwards I sorta floated around and had a luna bar for a snack. Cleaned my room, drew, and finally….LUNCH. 

Lunch was absolutely beautiful. A corn tortilla with melted cheese, kale, tomatoes, and cucumbers! YUM. I burnt it a bit, but that’s just a mistake to remember to avoid!

Anywho - after lunch I - again - floated around, talked to a friend, didn’t really know what to do with myself. THEN LO AND BEHOLD I FIND OUT THERE’S A BOOK BASED ON PETER PAN’S TIGER LILY. I LOOKED IT UP, READ AN EXERPT, THEN GOT ON MY BIKE AND MADE MY WAY TO THE BOOKSTORE.

Bought the book AND two comics! (flash and batgirl!)

Snack time #2 consisted of homemade chocoalte protein pudding (Two scoops spirutein powder, and your choice of one cup of milk - cow’s, almond, soy, etc. the two scoops gives it a pudding-y texture rather than a smoothie) and half of a fage greek yogurt (in case you didn’t notice my protein for the day was a bit lacking.)

I read until my dentist appointment. Read while WAITING at my dentist, came home, ran to gym where I did another half hour taekwondo routine and a half hour of weights.

Once I got in the car I decide to make my brother drive and pick up my friend. We grab some Pesos (I got nutella cream ice. TIS OKAY IT MADE MY BELLAY HAPPY). Sooo I had dessert before dinner and dinner wasn’t much considering I didn’t feel like cooking and I was so full from the rest of the day - so a piece of whole wheat toast with a tablespoon of peanutbutter…

Then my friend, brother, and two neighbors of mine just hung out for the night. I didn’t get to go to bed till 2, and now, even though I planned on running all day, I wake up to thunderstorms.

I DON’T LIKE THUNDERSTORMS GUYS. I’M TERRIFIED OF THEM. I’M REALLY WONDERING WHAT I SHOULD DO CAUSE I WANNA GO TO A YOGA CLASS AT THE GYM THAT’S IN HALF AND HOUR, BUT YOU KNOW I COULD ALWAYS DO THE YOGA VIDEO HERE AT HOME AND ELLIPTICAL AND TWENTY MINUTE CALISTHENICS YES? AHHHH HALP ME.

What? Farina! Yuck it’s so bland, why don’t you just make oatmeal - I mean oatmeal’s delicious!

Uhm because farina is warm and creamy and nutritious and gives me a shit ton of iron and I made it with fat free milk and added cinnamon and fruit and YUM.

But oatmeal’s awesome too…

Like I said, my friends shared a “Nutritious Kiss” Lady and the Tramp style but with kale.

(Source: eatforhealth, via berryhealthy)

eatingdisordermemes:

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So this blog made me both really happy and sad. Sad because I know what it felt like during that stage in my life - sad because I can remember it all so vividly and how horrible it felt thinking “Hanging out with friends? Won’t that mean I’d have to eat?” It is, in all honesty, the most depressing thought to realize your entire life revolved around food, the mirror, the scale, and weight in general. I love being fit and eating healthy over crap because it’s made me be able to LIVE life more and enjoy myself by actually going out and having fun with friends at Disney or Six Flags or in theatre or taking zumba classes or running or drawing. Even just having friends over for a movie night with  tasty home made food. Or fancy “dinner parties” that consist of a few 17 year olds asking a mother for help. Or having “typical teenager days” where I slept over a friend’s house, played Mario Party, ate nutella sandwiches and bell peppers dipped in hummus and cereal AND watched awesome shows until 4 am. THEN STILL FEELING HAPPY THE NEXT MORNING (if not a little nervous but smiling through it). Recovering is scary but it’s worth it…

I’ve realized that other than my self-confidence issues and the random really…REALLY bad relapse days and daily nerves….a lot of the thoughts have gone away. I’m happy I’m not doing those things to my body anymore - as tempting as restriction may be at times…

I think that’s why part of me really wants to go back to Cyprus this year. The last time I was in Cyprus I was at my worst (which would be the best compared to some people…guess that’s why I’m EDNOS.) But yes there is a big part of me that wants to go back there as a big FUCK YOU to my disordered thoughts that had me by myself and upset half the time I was there - so THIS TIME - I’d be able to enjoy those sea caves and my family get togethers and running at sunset to the beach to swim to Fig Tree Island and back then going to the bungee trampolines and talking with the British Tourists and be able to do all of that WITHOUT FEELING LIKE CRYING HALF THE TIME. 

I don’t know why I decided to pour my soul into this post…I guess ‘cause I want to reiterate the whole “It gets worse before it gets better.” “Stad up to your fear.” type thing considering I gained more than what I was before ED, but also realizing I’m STILL OKAY. And my body knows how to handle itself if I know how to treat it.

So what if I’m not the ideal body? I’m eating right and exercising.

I’m okay.

…..for a meme reblog this got really serious…

I recently had a dinner party and wanted to make an appetizer that would allow me to use a array of ingredients that would satisfy everyones palate. I also wanted it to be something simple to make and healthy for you.  I made two flavors of baked wontons but one stood out… Kale & Feta.

Kale & Feta Baked Wontons

Kale & Feta Wontons

1 Bunch of Kale, cleaned and chopped (2 cups)

1/2 cup feta cheese, crumbled (I used tomato & basil flavored feta)

1/2 cup cottage cheese

2 garlic cloves, minced

dash salt (to taste)

dash of pepper (to taste)

14 wonton wrappers

1/4 cup olive oil

Kale & Feta

Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Lightly grease a baking sheet, set aside until ready to use.

Rinse and dry the kale. Cut the kale away from the vein of the stem and chop into strips. Place kale in a saucepan, add minced garlic, salt and pepper and sauté for five minutes or until leaves are tender. Set aside and allow to cool for 10 minutes. Add feta cheese, cottage cheese and mix until all ingredients are incorporated.

Baked Wontons

Taking a wonton wrapper, lay flat on work surface, scoop a teaspoonful of kale & feta mixture into the center of your wonton wrapper, folding over the top, then the bottom, followed by the sides. Brush lightly with olive oil to seal closed. Place on the baking sheet, allowing 2 inches between each wonton, bake for 10 minutes. Plate and serve.

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